First Sunday Service at St.Barts in 2011

Having not thought about any work last night, motivated me to get up earlier today to catch up on.
First thing I opened my eyes, the sky was just gloomy grey

Closing my eyes again, wanting to try out "listening to God's whisper"
Then I felt asleep again untill 8pm ==""

Desperately wanting to hear messages from him
Never felt so eager to be back in Church

Once again, getting close to you like a child longing for home

"What a Faithful God Have I"  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RVOZBANNRCk
The feeling I could not explain myself

It came to "King of Kings, Majesty" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y5VutCGsVXE
uncovered all the hidden feelings

I prayed before going to Church today (which I havent done so for awhile)
and what a co-incidence

John talked about Love, and Peter disowning Jesus 3 times

"A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another"

Our fellowship theme verse
Didnt appealed to me so much like it did today

Guilt then it is.
Jesus repeated twice, you must love one another.

Yesterday, I asked as I was reading: HOW? how could I love a person who was totally being ignorant, taking granted of you and at the end of the day not showing a single sign of apology. How to love and forgive?

It is then, when you are not expecting anything when you are able to love truly. I cared about myself too much, accusing her for mistakes because at the end of the day, I am selfish because I cared about "losing a friend of mine" rather than loving a friend.

Then I feel guilty today because I was doing what Peter did.
Since SEEC last year, It changed my life, when I know I live as a Christian, not like one.

 How clear the message was today,
totally,
overwhelmed.