A proper rest means quality time with God

Only at these moments,

I realised all those things which are precious.

I never thought that not able getting a job YET can be something so blessed.

My dear Brother been subtly supportive, both spiritually and actively. Keeping my in prayers all the time, telling me, teaching me to rest, to be patient and not to be affected by the others.

Brothers and Sisters at both BCCF and So-Blessed- I ve never actually able to see myself being so loved.
Particularly, group2, thanks for all support and looking forward to our re-u in London in the very near future.
Trawcy Scum, my twinie, I am glad to have a sis like you that we share the same vision and focus in God. Let's praise and glorify him :)

Ashley, thanks for all your support, both for BCCF and myself, your advices and care, and your sarcasm.
Rod and Irene, the couple always speak encouraging things :D
My bible study group, every Sunday, my faith is always restored after such joyful bonding time.

St.Helen's buddies, if I had to work, I probably wont have time to see you all again, so I cant wait for the following tea parties and birthday parties and re-union again next week!

My aunt, though I never asked for any help, thanks so much for looking out for opportunities for me.

Jennifer, my sweet supervisor, thanks for everything, offering me freelance work, helping me to look for placement and always sending me encouraging and exciting arty passages to read! Ive never thought our friendship could turn out so great.

Beaummont and Jessica Cheng: my two beloved dodgy friends. Beaummont you teased the jobless me, but yet you and jess made me laugh all the time.

Jana Goehner, shame I couldnt visit you in Germany when I thought I couldve found a job by now. Thanks so much for your supportive messages, I will defo come and see you in Germany next year! I promise.

Elisabeta Ling: Yes i realised if i have got a job, i wouldnt have those amazing sharing time with you on the phone, london and bath, so I wouldnt ask for more la :) you are a great friend!

Romeo Chang: hmm wat can i say about you? Just want to thanks for everything, even at immature times, you ve been supportive. Clearly we are both getting mature under the guidance of God. No matter at So blessed fellowship, or EBS after lunch, Church times, out of church times, I never thought that we could have such sharing again after anything happened in the past. I give thanks :)

I spent sometime today, sitting alone, trying to pray (like how Pastor Chan taught us last Saturday)
I looked back, I realised, Ive taken too much for granted, I simply really have amazing friends and family, brothers and sisters.

Like Moses, if I had to sort out things using my own ways, I ended up with nothing. But knowing to rely on God, I could treasure those around me and He will guide my way.

Yet I kept over worrying about some tiny issues. At the end of the day, this is to be sorted because I know,

I have faith.

This short review really made me happy.

Love is really all around when I know God is with me all the time.

321....GO!

Finally sitting back in my bedroom,

Finally got some private time alone
And finally reviewing my life as well after celebrating so many friends' birthday within such a short while.

My dear friend, thanks everything you shared during my stay.
Thank you for your understanding, your care and your encouragement.
I had joyous time with you, travelling together, hanging out, just the two of us- girles time I have to say is always the awesome time.

You see things in me that most other people dont see
I have to say I appreciate those precious moments when we laid our hearts bare out in front of each other.

And then, without much planning, we seemed to have gone a little crazy
Could be described as "kwu chuet hui" ?
We hung out to Bristol, to do the things we wanted to do.

I am glad, that some moments we probably lost some discipline
But we afforded to do so.
I know, you have been tough, been lonely, been anxious

I guess I would describe this as "holiday" a proper one which we really left our worries behind and to enjoy what were in front of us.

Relaxed completely
Smiled all the way

Seeing everyone else enjoying themselves, I could not describe that satisfaction.
Singing K , Walking around Bath, Ice-cream, hot chocolate all those inclusive moments- I would say it's the real fellowship.

321 seems to make sense followed by the word "Go"
yeah, stepping out of a comfort zone- a breakthrough

I prayed to ask: what is faith. When bible stated it so clearly, it didnt click until I have experienced it in life.
When you have no proof, perhaps no evidence at all but that slight push for you to believe in something so deeply that could make one to take a step out

When I asked myself back, is this my will or God's will. To be honest, I dont think I can tell just yet until the time comes.

I made too many excuses for myself and now I seemed to have run out of reasons.

Perhaps the message arrived a little late, or I should say, it was bit late when I saw it.

 I've already made my decision.

And now, I left that comfort zone.

A full glass of water.

To both of my dearest,

Happy Birthday to you both
2 very different people,
yet both as equally important to me

Had very best time since this placement period in Bath
Especially, was reading the Samaritan Woman passage

I guess a lot of us, just like that woman, we search for many things that can satisfy ourselves, including relationships, work, achievements etc

But most of the time, that satisfaction does not last.

Just like a half empty cup of water
We could see it as half full, or half empty- but I believe, Pinocchio, you and I , we believe that we could have a full cup of water within our faith.

No matter we are optimistic, or not.

Paddington Bear: I am so grateful to be with you, 7th Birthday together !
You have no idea how much I would love to spend this special day with you in many years to come

I searched everywhere, but gratefully, I could meet you two
despite there are laws and rules about how the universe run
I guess it is not co-incidence that we became such good friends, and mean something to each other.

Otherwise, we would have just met, walked past each other.

lastly just wana briefly wish you two a blessed birthday
and really Love you two

Passion

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PP-OEDHLYyg&feature=related

I believe there is no one else out there loving me as much as Jesus do.

The day I became a Christian, was the day I realised that love could be so perfect.

We call him God, not only because of all the great things he did in his life time. But no one could ever do so much, could sacrifice everything- the only thing he asks - have faith in him.

Thinking back, I have made so many mistakes in my life,
hurting my parents, my friends, or even, myself

I am selfish, most of the time.

When I thought or I tell you that I love you, sometimes I even doubt am I doing this, just for self-satisfaction?

When I thought I could do something for someone, at the end of the day, I could be proud of myself.

I knew it, from the beginning.

When I was young, I tried had to please people around me, because I want to be loved, to be admired

But I know, God Knows everything, every ugly thoughts I had in my mind.

Yet, he declares that he loves me. Even I am like that, he had already paid the price, upon that cross.

So I follow him, because I believe, in Him, I would be to love people from the bottom of my heart
Not for myself, but for God, to glorify him.

I am asking too much of you, too much that I really question if this is love.

That's not the way I want, how fragile, how weak, love without the presence of God is no longer true

At the worst moment of my life, I know I wont be alone.

I wish you may realise, you are not alone too.

Sorry, my pride.
I denied your love because perhaps I think too highly of myself.
I think "even I am not able to love properly, how would you know"

Yes, I had  such  thought so
I dont deserve a right to speak about Love

When God tells us:

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres,

Love never fails.

What I did was:

Impatient, envy, proud
Get angry easily, kept all records of wrongs

I failed

That's why, we commit sins all the time, who else out that could do all these to everyone?
I thought I had nothing to do with Jesus, even I thought I had nothing to do with him, he sacrificed everything to tell me he loves me.

I cant say it's nothing to do with me anymore, because it does matter.

Perhaps, we all take the word "love" less serious than it meant.

It's a big word to me, and a long way to go.

That's why, I am sorry.

1 John 4.18

"愛 裡 沒 有 懼 怕 ． 愛 既 完 全 、 就 把 懼 怕 除 去 ． 因 為 懼 怕 裡 含 著 刑 罰 ． 懼 怕 的 人 在 愛 裡 未 得 完 全 " 1John 4.18


My faith in God swings , been having awkward feeling that "this is a punishment" rather than a blessings.
 I pray because I need understanding

God tells us to build relationships

I tried my best already, at least I think I am following God

But it seems to be I am destroying it, I cant bare that again
Even though I know whatever happens, God you will be with me at all times

I simply just dont want to go through, tell me, if there is another way out of this

Not escaping, simply going a better way, there must be one.

"love" is no longer love when it changes its form into selfishness and anxiety.