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words of comfort

For a couple of days, I tried to work, to sleep to fill up a very busy time schedule so that I can switch my focus from something else.

Somehow, I began to handle all these alone and yet after all, only Your promise and your words are my comfort, my hope and my faith.

Being a Christian,

I feel so unspeakably glad that I could tell my Father in Heaven

Father, I am really exhausted.

Exhausted from being hurt, exhausted from speaking words that did not glorify you, spoke words that dishonor you.

at this time of night, being alone, in a strange city

So glad, You are with me all the time.

" Lord, how are they increased that trouble me! many are they that rise up against me.

 Many there be which say of my soul, There is no help for him in God. Selah.

But thou, O LORD, art a shield for me; my glory, and the lifter up of mine head.

I cried unto the LORD with my voice, and he heard me out of his holy hill. Selah.

I laid me down and slept; I awaked; for the LORD sustained me.

I will not be afraid of ten thousands of people, that have set themselves against me round about."

Psalms 3:3-6

at this time moment, only your words sustained me,

your words comforted me

and I can cry in your embrace.

Thank you Lord, my Father

thank you so much for teaching me a valuable lesson

Thank you for listening to my prayer

You are amazing.

I am so scared, and dare not to think my life without you.

When I am alone, I am not lonely, 

when people spoke words to hurt me

You are there to tell me, I am valuable to You.

so You sacrificed yourself for me.

and let me know at this moment, I am deeply loved by you.

even I dont speak of anything, you knew everything about me.

Once I thought you probably were the person who could really see me.

and knows what I need, and be there for me.

seems turning out

after all we couldnt do anything for each other.

when you probably used to read my heart here

I guess you have already forgotten about this

New and Old

When the new one is there

the old one get forgotten

It seems true, at least in reality.

Sometimes there are things I dont want new ones,

I dont want to worship a "new" God.
 Not new parents

perhaps new friends we are meeting in everyday life

And I never thought in the future, perhaps

a new boyfriend.

and before that,

I want a new self.

Thanks fOr being honest,

So I don't have to live in lies anymore

I will not look back now, had enough of lies

If one can't handle himself,he can't handle relationship

The worst thing is you probably I think I would be happy to hear the truth when u have made up for it

From my experience,when have you ever made up for it

You cannot lie to me

No matter there is a present or not, you should never lied
So that I won't feel so stupid

I wish I hadn't spend a time or effort in Xmas to see you or to get you anything
Because

You never truly cared

Your selfishness is utterly making me disappointed

At certain times, I don't see any hope or faith in this relationship

It's a lot of stress and worries that you don't understand

We treasure different things in life leads to at the end of the day we will go in separate ways

Now it's just the matter of time

It's frustration when i know this separation

I can't share joy and peace that I gained from serving other
It could be double the joy when you could get it too

But at the end of the day,this feeling of separation halve the joy I had

Cos I couldn't share this with you

Even though u were meant to be the
Close one to me

after tonight, I will not let myself to cry again over this

it's enough of meaningless tears, misunderstanding, disappointment.

let it all end

so I can be back to where I was

I guess all people want to be loved and know that they are wanted.

Just at this age, we are too up for ourselves, chasing for our career desire more than anything else.
We are not ready to look out for each other, Not ready to take care another's feeling.

nothing felt right

I should know from the beginning.

when you would rather print your own company brochure than walking home with me from work when I was ill

when you were furious with me and left me vomiting by the pier

when you made me waited for countless time because of your poor time management

Yet, I wanted to believe, because at those times I felt I was deeply loved by you.
When you would do silly voice recording and walking me home and late night even though you catching the last train back to bath

yes, a guy would do anything for a girl when they are not together

and once together, I feel I am nothing more important when you could delay your promise all the time and promised you would change for better.

at my 21st birthday, you promised me you would do better

better organisation

it's co-incidence then, that you didnt have time to prepare anything
 co-incidence that you had to work all xmas and turned out you didnt do much at singapore

december anniversay, you promised you would make changes and asked me to wait

xmas eve, you said similar things

even just before i left bath, you said wait till your exams all finished

now everything is "finished", all you said is you promise you will do better

nothing is ever finished. I told you from the start.

Summer, wait till your summer internship finish
Birthday wait till your friends are gone
Semester 1, wait till your crit is over, wait till your deadline is over
Now, wait till your job searching is over,

Now, I tell you wait till this relationship is over

You dont have to do anything for me, ever again

Thanks for all you did in the past

May be there are other girls who are more suitable
for you

who can fully accept what you did, can accept how messy you are and dont give a shit
so you guys can be messy together since you said no matter what effort I put into organising your room it doesnt affect you. Yes, what maid does doesnt affect you.

Only I think if i ever help others to do such thing, they would appreciate more than you do

I had enough of all these

Time changed,people changed

That's all

‎"Watch your thoughts for they become words. Watch your words for they become actions. Watch your actions for they become habits. Watch your habits, for they become your character. And watch your character, for it becomes your destiny! What we think we become"


"If you want anything said, ask a man. If you want something done, ask a woman."


You may have to fight a battle more than once to win it


its a marathon where I dont know where the finish line is

New year resolution

I have one main resolution this year
I have to sort out this feeling...Need to pray hard for God to give me strength for forgiveness.

Even though it hurts if the picture of that person pops up, I need to forgive, I dont know how to forget something so easily

but it's time to face it up and stop mourning and let this feeling haunt me for the rest of my life and affecting my relationship.

so...everytime if I am tempted to look up something I should never see again, I shall pray to Father, to keep myself away