Thanks fOr being honest,

So I don't have to live in lies anymore

I will not look back now, had enough of lies

If one can't handle himself,he can't handle relationship

The worst thing is you probably I think I would be happy to hear the truth when u have made up for it

From my experience,when have you ever made up for it

You cannot lie to me

No matter there is a present or not, you should never lied
So that I won't feel so stupid

I wish I hadn't spend a time or effort in Xmas to see you or to get you anything
Because

You never truly cared

Your selfishness is utterly making me disappointed

At certain times, I don't see any hope or faith in this relationship

It's a lot of stress and worries that you don't understand

We treasure different things in life leads to at the end of the day we will go in separate ways

Now it's just the matter of time

It's frustration when i know this separation

I can't share joy and peace that I gained from serving other
It could be double the joy when you could get it too

But at the end of the day,this feeling of separation halve the joy I had

Cos I couldn't share this with you

Even though u were meant to be the
Close one to me

after tonight, I will not let myself to cry again over this

it's enough of meaningless tears, misunderstanding, disappointment.

let it all end

so I can be back to where I was

I guess all people want to be loved and know that they are wanted.

Just at this age, we are too up for ourselves, chasing for our career desire more than anything else.
We are not ready to look out for each other, Not ready to take care another's feeling.

nothing felt right

I should know from the beginning.

when you would rather print your own company brochure than walking home with me from work when I was ill

when you were furious with me and left me vomiting by the pier

when you made me waited for countless time because of your poor time management

Yet, I wanted to believe, because at those times I felt I was deeply loved by you.
When you would do silly voice recording and walking me home and late night even though you catching the last train back to bath

yes, a guy would do anything for a girl when they are not together

and once together, I feel I am nothing more important when you could delay your promise all the time and promised you would change for better.

at my 21st birthday, you promised me you would do better

better organisation

it's co-incidence then, that you didnt have time to prepare anything
 co-incidence that you had to work all xmas and turned out you didnt do much at singapore

december anniversay, you promised you would make changes and asked me to wait

xmas eve, you said similar things

even just before i left bath, you said wait till your exams all finished

now everything is "finished", all you said is you promise you will do better

nothing is ever finished. I told you from the start.

Summer, wait till your summer internship finish
Birthday wait till your friends are gone
Semester 1, wait till your crit is over, wait till your deadline is over
Now, wait till your job searching is over,

Now, I tell you wait till this relationship is over

You dont have to do anything for me, ever again

Thanks for all you did in the past

May be there are other girls who are more suitable
for you

who can fully accept what you did, can accept how messy you are and dont give a shit
so you guys can be messy together since you said no matter what effort I put into organising your room it doesnt affect you. Yes, what maid does doesnt affect you.

Only I think if i ever help others to do such thing, they would appreciate more than you do

I had enough of all these