after tonight, I will not let myself to cry again over this

it's enough of meaningless tears, misunderstanding, disappointment.

let it all end

so I can be back to where I was

I guess all people want to be loved and know that they are wanted.

Just at this age, we are too up for ourselves, chasing for our career desire more than anything else.
We are not ready to look out for each other, Not ready to take care another's feeling.

nothing felt right

I should know from the beginning.

when you would rather print your own company brochure than walking home with me from work when I was ill

when you were furious with me and left me vomiting by the pier

when you made me waited for countless time because of your poor time management

Yet, I wanted to believe, because at those times I felt I was deeply loved by you.
When you would do silly voice recording and walking me home and late night even though you catching the last train back to bath

yes, a guy would do anything for a girl when they are not together

and once together, I feel I am nothing more important when you could delay your promise all the time and promised you would change for better.

at my 21st birthday, you promised me you would do better

better organisation

it's co-incidence then, that you didnt have time to prepare anything
 co-incidence that you had to work all xmas and turned out you didnt do much at singapore

december anniversay, you promised you would make changes and asked me to wait

xmas eve, you said similar things

even just before i left bath, you said wait till your exams all finished

now everything is "finished", all you said is you promise you will do better

nothing is ever finished. I told you from the start.

Summer, wait till your summer internship finish
Birthday wait till your friends are gone
Semester 1, wait till your crit is over, wait till your deadline is over
Now, wait till your job searching is over,

Now, I tell you wait till this relationship is over

You dont have to do anything for me, ever again

Thanks for all you did in the past

May be there are other girls who are more suitable
for you

who can fully accept what you did, can accept how messy you are and dont give a shit
so you guys can be messy together since you said no matter what effort I put into organising your room it doesnt affect you. Yes, what maid does doesnt affect you.

Only I think if i ever help others to do such thing, they would appreciate more than you do

I had enough of all these