Passion

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PP-OEDHLYyg&feature=related

I believe there is no one else out there loving me as much as Jesus do.

The day I became a Christian, was the day I realised that love could be so perfect.

We call him God, not only because of all the great things he did in his life time. But no one could ever do so much, could sacrifice everything- the only thing he asks - have faith in him.

Thinking back, I have made so many mistakes in my life,
hurting my parents, my friends, or even, myself

I am selfish, most of the time.

When I thought or I tell you that I love you, sometimes I even doubt am I doing this, just for self-satisfaction?

When I thought I could do something for someone, at the end of the day, I could be proud of myself.

I knew it, from the beginning.

When I was young, I tried had to please people around me, because I want to be loved, to be admired

But I know, God Knows everything, every ugly thoughts I had in my mind.

Yet, he declares that he loves me. Even I am like that, he had already paid the price, upon that cross.

So I follow him, because I believe, in Him, I would be to love people from the bottom of my heart
Not for myself, but for God, to glorify him.

I am asking too much of you, too much that I really question if this is love.

That's not the way I want, how fragile, how weak, love without the presence of God is no longer true

At the worst moment of my life, I know I wont be alone.

I wish you may realise, you are not alone too.

Sorry, my pride.
I denied your love because perhaps I think too highly of myself.
I think "even I am not able to love properly, how would you know"

Yes, I had  such  thought so
I dont deserve a right to speak about Love

When God tells us:

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres,

Love never fails.

What I did was:

Impatient, envy, proud
Get angry easily, kept all records of wrongs

I failed

That's why, we commit sins all the time, who else out that could do all these to everyone?
I thought I had nothing to do with Jesus, even I thought I had nothing to do with him, he sacrificed everything to tell me he loves me.

I cant say it's nothing to do with me anymore, because it does matter.

Perhaps, we all take the word "love" less serious than it meant.

It's a big word to me, and a long way to go.

That's why, I am sorry.