Heard this from Uncle Brian yesterday when I was working.
He told the following story:
魚對水說：＂你看不到我的眼淚，因為我在水裡。＂水回答說：＂我能感覺到你的眼淚，因為你在我心裡。
When I first heard it, I thought "hmm interesting"
It didnt hit me harder until I thought about it after a few mins
Obviously, you wont be any tears in the water, that's common sense
But It made a connection to me
Because thats one of the reasons I love swimming, and showering if I ever need to cry
What this touches me is that
Fishy THOUGHT "water" wont be able to see her tears
The importance here is not about "seeing" but "feeling"
Water can FEEL her sadness.
I guess when you see someone cry, it's just as simple as fact
Can you actually share the feeling, and be in that person's position?
I could hear the whisper then
We are all like fishy, living in a world we think we know very well.
even breathing, we wouldnt take notice of the greatness behind all these.
We think we were all alone when we are down
Perhaps, it's not like that.
Say God creates the world, he is everywhere, He is the "water"
We dont take notice because we cant see. Like the fishy.
Most of the time, we are all "blind"
We rely on things we see, yet seldom trying to feel.
If you think you are the fish, believe it or not, God does understand all the pain, all the things you've been through. For he is everywhere, we are surrounded by his presence.
Yes, we cant see, but we can feel?
As I re-read this over again
I have this feeling in mind
Not just I could relate myself to the fish, I dont want to be just a fish
I want to be "water" too, able to share one's feeling, Put them in your heart, walk in their shoes and then
to Love.
Ultimately, love is what we all aim for
It's 心同感受
"Water" is very intelligent, he didnt say he saw the tears, but he said he "feels" it.
Because from Fishy's point of view, it is NOT important for her tears to be seen or not, it's not that matters.
But Fishy deep down must be hoping someone could understand, more than just to be "seen'
Reminded me a lot of gospel stories I read before becoming a Christian.
Including how he healed the many, not just physically, but sorrow.
Jesus knows what we need
Deep down he knows exactly what we are missing out
And he provides everything we need
All we got to do is to believe
2011年1月17日 星期一
Behind all that smiles
For the first time in my life,
I stalked my mum on facebook
I guess I was really too bored with work
Couldnt find much from my dad's profile then clicked into mum's.
Seeing the pictures of her with her students, I finally could visualise the life she was describing during xmas.
Was it because I wasnt interested in knowing her life at all?
I admire her.
Always have, she never stops following her dreams. She always make sure everything is okay with every single one of us in the family. The one bothers to forward lots of what i would call junk mail to spam our inbox of information of healthy diet etc etc
She would ensure dad got perfect ironed shirt for his work,
She concerns about us more than herself.
Perhaps, she thought about us, more than I do.
Perhaps, she stalked me on facebook more than I do
I think I should stalk her more
Dad, oh dad, you always asleep when it comes to skype time. and you always call when I am out!
As I clicked through the pictures, it came to one when he was really young.
I smiled, he was even more handsome than Benson.
How much have you been through dad, reaching the age now
all that hard-work just for us, for Benson and Me.
How much have you two been through, behind all that smiles in the pictures
Would anyone notice, appreciate?
Finally, I clicked Benson's profile.
Seems like he is living a happy life, smiling a lot, being with all the brothers and sisters from SOC Church
You have indeed grown
We both have.
My dear Dai Lo,
I know you have been through a lot too, through all the up and down
You never had enough quality time with mum and dad
They were too young at the time, having to work so hard to keep things going
You have been the tough one gor.
When I have asthma, you were the one sprinting out to get me inhaler
When I for the first time broke down in front of you, you wiped my tears away
Behind all smiley faces, how much have you been through?
I knew it, when I read your testimony
Your life has changed ever since
You changed mine
Mum and Dad changed mine
God brought us together, though we grew up in separate countries
You are my only one brother
Whatever decision you make
I will support you because I know
your faith makes you who you are now
Not that poker face you used to have
But a smiley one :)
From Long K
I stalked my mum on facebook
I guess I was really too bored with work
Couldnt find much from my dad's profile then clicked into mum's.
Seeing the pictures of her with her students, I finally could visualise the life she was describing during xmas.
Was it because I wasnt interested in knowing her life at all?
I admire her.
Always have, she never stops following her dreams. She always make sure everything is okay with every single one of us in the family. The one bothers to forward lots of what i would call junk mail to spam our inbox of information of healthy diet etc etc
She would ensure dad got perfect ironed shirt for his work,
She concerns about us more than herself.
Perhaps, she thought about us, more than I do.
Perhaps, she stalked me on facebook more than I do
I think I should stalk her more
Dad, oh dad, you always asleep when it comes to skype time. and you always call when I am out!
As I clicked through the pictures, it came to one when he was really young.
I smiled, he was even more handsome than Benson.
How much have you been through dad, reaching the age now
all that hard-work just for us, for Benson and Me.
How much have you two been through, behind all that smiles in the pictures
Would anyone notice, appreciate?
Finally, I clicked Benson's profile.
Seems like he is living a happy life, smiling a lot, being with all the brothers and sisters from SOC Church
You have indeed grown
We both have.
My dear Dai Lo,
I know you have been through a lot too, through all the up and down
You never had enough quality time with mum and dad
They were too young at the time, having to work so hard to keep things going
You have been the tough one gor.
When I have asthma, you were the one sprinting out to get me inhaler
When I for the first time broke down in front of you, you wiped my tears away
Behind all smiley faces, how much have you been through?
I knew it, when I read your testimony
Your life has changed ever since
You changed mine
Mum and Dad changed mine
God brought us together, though we grew up in separate countries
You are my only one brother
Whatever decision you make
I will support you because I know
your faith makes you who you are now
Not that poker face you used to have
But a smiley one :)
From Long K
2011年1月16日 星期日
First Sunday Service at St.Barts in 2011
Having not thought about any work last night, motivated me to get up earlier today to catch up on.
First thing I opened my eyes, the sky was just gloomy grey
Closing my eyes again, wanting to try out "listening to God's whisper"
Then I felt asleep again untill 8pm ==""
Desperately wanting to hear messages from him
Never felt so eager to be back in Church
Once again, getting close to you like a child longing for home
"What a Faithful God Have I" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RVOZBANNRCk
The feeling I could not explain myself
It came to "King of Kings, Majesty" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y5VutCGsVXE
uncovered all the hidden feelings
I prayed before going to Church today (which I havent done so for awhile)
and what a co-incidence
John talked about Love, and Peter disowning Jesus 3 times
"A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another"
Our fellowship theme verse
Didnt appealed to me so much like it did today
Guilt then it is.
Jesus repeated twice, you must love one another.
Yesterday, I asked as I was reading: HOW? how could I love a person who was totally being ignorant, taking granted of you and at the end of the day not showing a single sign of apology. How to love and forgive?
It is then, when you are not expecting anything when you are able to love truly. I cared about myself too much, accusing her for mistakes because at the end of the day, I am selfish because I cared about "losing a friend of mine" rather than loving a friend.
Then I feel guilty today because I was doing what Peter did.
Since SEEC last year, It changed my life, when I know I live as a Christian, not like one.
How clear the message was today,
totally,
overwhelmed.
First thing I opened my eyes, the sky was just gloomy grey
Closing my eyes again, wanting to try out "listening to God's whisper"
Then I felt asleep again untill 8pm ==""
Desperately wanting to hear messages from him
Never felt so eager to be back in Church
Once again, getting close to you like a child longing for home
"What a Faithful God Have I" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RVOZBANNRCk
The feeling I could not explain myself
It came to "King of Kings, Majesty" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y5VutCGsVXE
uncovered all the hidden feelings
I prayed before going to Church today (which I havent done so for awhile)
and what a co-incidence
John talked about Love, and Peter disowning Jesus 3 times
"A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another"
Our fellowship theme verse
Didnt appealed to me so much like it did today
Guilt then it is.
Jesus repeated twice, you must love one another.
Yesterday, I asked as I was reading: HOW? how could I love a person who was totally being ignorant, taking granted of you and at the end of the day not showing a single sign of apology. How to love and forgive?
It is then, when you are not expecting anything when you are able to love truly. I cared about myself too much, accusing her for mistakes because at the end of the day, I am selfish because I cared about "losing a friend of mine" rather than loving a friend.
Then I feel guilty today because I was doing what Peter did.
Since SEEC last year, It changed my life, when I know I live as a Christian, not like one.
How clear the message was today,
totally,
overwhelmed.
2011年1月15日 星期六
First BCCF 2011
Was grateful that 3 coursework are done, one more to go for Monday
yeh a few more perhaps
I thought it's always good to be busy, when one could focus on completing a task, it feels good.
Jetlag perhaps is a really good thing for me, getting up early, sleeping early- it's joyful to live like this
Things keep happening each day, some repeated, almost following a similar rhythm each day
Is there any detail that could touch your heart at certain time of the day?
First BCCF gathering today, was rather unlucky to spend 40mins waiting for a bus, I felt.
Seeing the blue bus going, seeing one that came saying "not in Service"
I decided to wait, even though 3 orange buses came.
Obviously, I dont know if I would call this "being stubborn"
It was rather not so good, choosing to be late when I couldve avoided it.
Blame the blue bus, I thought.
Now, I blame myself, when I had the choice, it was me giving it away.
It's not I cant afford to get on the Orange one, it was perhaps only I feel I had to get on the blue one, when I had already spent all that time waiting.
As simple as that, I missed out Fellowship time, perhaps it really didnt worth it, when I reviewed this small incident.
Gratefully, didnt seem to miss out too much, the movie we watched seemed okay
For a long time, havent had such group sharing.
Brothers and Sisters, I miss you all
especially when starting to count down days remaining in Bath
Sharing joy, hearing voices
I perhaps spent too much time listening to my own voice, spent too much time on asking God for what I want
Didnt get up to ask God what he wanted me to do recently
as everyday, I ask him to give me this and that
What can I give him?
If one asking his/her parents to do this and that for them
what would you do for your parents?
Listening is a challenging piece of homework
Someone asked me "how would you know, if that was your voice, or God's voice"
Ha, I asked that couple of times before too
Now, I think I know, because you will know it.
To put this down onto paper, if you read something, you would know straight away who wrote that when you know the person.
If I know my mum well, I wouldve known it came from her
I know it was God's words because I know I wouldnt have been able to think of that myself
It's getting uneasy now
I think I have tried my best to make up for it
But she seems to hate me so much
Perhaps I stared at the screen for a long time
Why? I asked so many times
when I havent done things wrong, I was the one who got abandoned, to get all the blame
unfair?
At one point I thought we were such close friends, I tried in xmas, tried again on your birthday
You seem like you dont want to speak to me ever again
It hurts
I didnt know what to ask for now, I opened up the bible, hoping to seek for God's words because, funnily enough like the girl in the movie, I couldnt hear anything.
not knowing which part I wanted to read, I want to listen to Jesus' words
so I flipped to the gospels, opened up to Mark.
Reading 14:31 particularly made me angry
Peter insisted "even if I have to die with you, I will never disown you"
BULL SHIT!
sorry..but bull shittt!
How one could say that, when in 14: 71 , he said "I dont know this man you're talking about"
)&)(#)(*$@*$)@*)(*$(*!(*(!*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Peter disowns Jesus
Juda betrayed Jesus
How could Jesus wash their feet, putting himself down like that
I ve heard of this story so many times
yet they didnt touch me that much until this point
when I have experienced, when someone deceived you
It must have been heart-breaking to Jesus
It's heart breaking, because they've chosen something else? even they knew at the beginning that Jesus loves them.
People's love is so conditional
heart-breaking when you dont get what is expected
loving someone to hope someone loves you back
self-satisfying
When the whole world deserted him, he sacrificed everything
If I dont love Jesus, I think I must be crazy.
choosing something else rather than the unconditional love, dont think I would ever be satisfied
This is a great reminder I got from BCCF today
I seldom speak about love
I need not to ask what I do to make someone loves me back
As all I need to do is follow him until the end of time, not to be afraid to be abandoned again
yeh a few more perhaps
I thought it's always good to be busy, when one could focus on completing a task, it feels good.
Jetlag perhaps is a really good thing for me, getting up early, sleeping early- it's joyful to live like this
Things keep happening each day, some repeated, almost following a similar rhythm each day
Is there any detail that could touch your heart at certain time of the day?
First BCCF gathering today, was rather unlucky to spend 40mins waiting for a bus, I felt.
Seeing the blue bus going, seeing one that came saying "not in Service"
I decided to wait, even though 3 orange buses came.
Obviously, I dont know if I would call this "being stubborn"
It was rather not so good, choosing to be late when I couldve avoided it.
Blame the blue bus, I thought.
Now, I blame myself, when I had the choice, it was me giving it away.
It's not I cant afford to get on the Orange one, it was perhaps only I feel I had to get on the blue one, when I had already spent all that time waiting.
As simple as that, I missed out Fellowship time, perhaps it really didnt worth it, when I reviewed this small incident.
Gratefully, didnt seem to miss out too much, the movie we watched seemed okay
For a long time, havent had such group sharing.
Brothers and Sisters, I miss you all
especially when starting to count down days remaining in Bath
Sharing joy, hearing voices
I perhaps spent too much time listening to my own voice, spent too much time on asking God for what I want
Didnt get up to ask God what he wanted me to do recently
as everyday, I ask him to give me this and that
What can I give him?
If one asking his/her parents to do this and that for them
what would you do for your parents?
Listening is a challenging piece of homework
Someone asked me "how would you know, if that was your voice, or God's voice"
Ha, I asked that couple of times before too
Now, I think I know, because you will know it.
To put this down onto paper, if you read something, you would know straight away who wrote that when you know the person.
If I know my mum well, I wouldve known it came from her
I know it was God's words because I know I wouldnt have been able to think of that myself
It's getting uneasy now
I think I have tried my best to make up for it
But she seems to hate me so much
Perhaps I stared at the screen for a long time
Why? I asked so many times
when I havent done things wrong, I was the one who got abandoned, to get all the blame
unfair?
At one point I thought we were such close friends, I tried in xmas, tried again on your birthday
You seem like you dont want to speak to me ever again
It hurts
I didnt know what to ask for now, I opened up the bible, hoping to seek for God's words because, funnily enough like the girl in the movie, I couldnt hear anything.
not knowing which part I wanted to read, I want to listen to Jesus' words
so I flipped to the gospels, opened up to Mark.
Reading 14:31 particularly made me angry
Peter insisted "even if I have to die with you, I will never disown you"
BULL SHIT!
sorry..but bull shittt!
How one could say that, when in 14: 71 , he said "I dont know this man you're talking about"
)&)(#)(*$@*$)@*)(*$(*!(*(!*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Peter disowns Jesus
Juda betrayed Jesus
How could Jesus wash their feet, putting himself down like that
I ve heard of this story so many times
yet they didnt touch me that much until this point
when I have experienced, when someone deceived you
It must have been heart-breaking to Jesus
It's heart breaking, because they've chosen something else? even they knew at the beginning that Jesus loves them.
People's love is so conditional
heart-breaking when you dont get what is expected
loving someone to hope someone loves you back
self-satisfying
When the whole world deserted him, he sacrificed everything
If I dont love Jesus, I think I must be crazy.
choosing something else rather than the unconditional love, dont think I would ever be satisfied
This is a great reminder I got from BCCF today
I seldom speak about love
I need not to ask what I do to make someone loves me back
As all I need to do is follow him until the end of time, not to be afraid to be abandoned again
2 pieces of heart-breaking sharing I heard this week from two very different people
Girls, don't get defeated by this feeling of "loneliness"
You perhaps feel lonely at the moment, but you ARE not
It's not about what you want but what is righteous.
It's amazing how we could become each other's blessing
Hey, Pinocchio, the timing was perfect, but I am seriously gona miss you when it comes to the time we travel at separate paces.
2011年1月13日 星期四
2011年1月7日 星期五
To Pinocchio
I ve never been so looking forward to be back in Bath before.
Though, there are tonnes of work waiting for me.
I used to hate my boarding school to begin with, but as time goes on, I started to look forward to be there.
I didnt want to go to Bath, as it wasnt my first or second choice uni to begin with.
But I know, God's plan is amazing
I met you Pinocchio in Bath
I met Jessica at St.Helen's
And both of you were born on the same day, both of you meant a lot to me.
In front of both of you, I need not to hide my trueself
Sometimes, when I dont wana be a tough one, I can take a break, perhaps be spoiled
I dont mind shedding tears in front of you and thinking I am a huge loser
I can borrow your shoulders, without worrying that you would move away
the truth is, Pinocchio, God brought us together, to experience Life
What is Life?
I am perhaps too young to say so
But going through all sort of things, and then
been lost, been found
we found love
And after reading your words,
I find love, that made me once again, shed tears not of sadness
but joy :)
I love you and I truly do
I cant wait to see you
Though, there are tonnes of work waiting for me.
I used to hate my boarding school to begin with, but as time goes on, I started to look forward to be there.
I didnt want to go to Bath, as it wasnt my first or second choice uni to begin with.
But I know, God's plan is amazing
I met you Pinocchio in Bath
I met Jessica at St.Helen's
And both of you were born on the same day, both of you meant a lot to me.
In front of both of you, I need not to hide my trueself
Sometimes, when I dont wana be a tough one, I can take a break, perhaps be spoiled
I dont mind shedding tears in front of you and thinking I am a huge loser
I can borrow your shoulders, without worrying that you would move away
the truth is, Pinocchio, God brought us together, to experience Life
What is Life?
I am perhaps too young to say so
But going through all sort of things, and then
been lost, been found
we found love
And after reading your words,
I find love, that made me once again, shed tears not of sadness
but joy :)
I love you and I truly do
I cant wait to see you
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