Las cosas que no sabes

The things you dont know

"'What' and ‘if’ two words as nonthreatening

as words come. But put

them together side-by-side and they

have the power to haunt you for the

rest of your life: ‘What if?...

Indeed, these words have been haunting me for years.

I pray that I will be given the strength

When I want to forget about you, I thought of you.

When I thought of you, I miss everything about you

and

I do because you dont know anything about this.

It's a contradiction,

of following God's will, 

and my heart....

I begin to question myself,

Am I really a Christian?

I thought I have been walking with God all the way long,

I did, but I look at else where...seeking for "what if".