Tough time is when one feel unsupported

Answer doesn't come instantly when I asked for it

Perhaps,even when one tells you he or she could do anything for you

I never trust those words

Humans like us, are weak when facing our environment

One could probably never understands if they never got let down by someone they trust

After these months,I understand why we ought to learn how to forgive

Those who can truly forgive are probably those who understands human's weakness

Pride, selfishness

I tried to forgive and got tired
What let this relationship happens is because of his love at presence

And I love him
Too

Yet it's so hard to say so because I know it hurts so badly when one told you they love you and then did something probs put of their control
To hurt u

If I hurt you one day then these words would become lies

I know myself nowadays that I am also a selfish person
I wasn't afraid of getting hurt because I have strong faith in my heart

Now I am afraid, terribly afraid of putting something above my priortu

Never to expect someone for u at anytime
Because it doesn't happen in reality

But I know God is
He is real

Today again
Incredibly feeling insecure

Regretted for spitting out bitter words to make myself feel better

Each time
When I am
Doing this

The inside of me seemed to lead me on to say more to destroy this relationship

I wanted to go back to the old days

The old self seemed to be stronger than I am now

I don't think I am doing fine


Feeling regretted to spit bitter words to make myself feel better


I feel regretted
The inside me seemed to lead me on to destroy this relationship

It's tough times to think I am alone

As time goes on,it gets bitter and bitter

The problem is as time goes on I began to carry this out all alone
At the beginning
I know how to share the load with God

And don't know since when
I began to do this all alone an think I can do better
Unconsciously thinking I could handle this and I can share 'other' things with him

Forgotten He is part of my life

I thought I could do this

And realized there's only so little one can do
I thought I could be tough

When I look at this relationship, how much more
Harm can I do to it?

Sometimes it almost feels like the end of it

I realized my love is conditional
And not a good example of His greatest love

When seeing the limit and the end of human's conditional love
Made me
Once again look upon His unconditional love

Our concept puts us to think that we need to have sometime to trade for love
To get in position to beloved

I am so stupid

I have accepted the greatest gift already
The greatest love of all

In days to come I got
To remind myself every so often when I started to feel weak

To remind myself once again
Who gave up His precious life for me so that however awful I feel
There is still faith hope

And love




I probably can understand

What makes me uncomfortable is knowing what he's been through but I haven't

Yet I always thought till this point,I am the only one who is still trapped

The truth is it's not just about understanding weakness
It's about forgiving even u don't understand

I tried and I get tired
Because knowing someone u love who once seemed didn't love you
Is a horrible feeling

It's might be easier to move on without this feeling

Yet what let this happens is because his love at presence

And I love him
Too

But I fear to say this out often
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