Excuses and Reasons

Sometimes I get confused between "Excuses" or "Reasons"

Most of the time, I have a lot of reasons behind the decisions made.
At times, I made a lot of excuses for myself too.

If I have to describe that particular moment of the day, it would be 心力交碎
The awkwardness is uncomforting.


If I could, I wish I could swim all day long, not having to hear all those things undesirable.
Not having to see things that I dont even wana have a glance upon.


Today reminds me of one of those days, where I would probably stuck my head into the sinkful of water, cried as crazy as I wanted to and not having to feel those tears streaming down the face.


There are words I cannot express it out.


Gratefully, the joyful moment of sharing the cake with Helen and Elisabeta really had brightened up my day.
Surely, that encouraging text really meant a lot to me.


I never really expected any rewards


The worship practices also meant a lot to me today
Seeing the brothers and sisters, i could always put those feelings away, when we can focus to sing and praise God together. 


In a lot of way, God, I thank you, today, for saving me, at least twice.


I am not even gona shed a drop of tear, it simply does not worth it.