Dedicated to my dear friend

I once thought friends are ones you hang out with, having fun with etc

But there is a difference, between a buddy and a friend.

Even though, I thought I am cold hearted at most times, I am confident in controlling my feelings.

I have been thinking about you the whole day my friend.
The word  'sorry' has cut my heart too, when I know I couldnt be physically there for you.

I should be saying sorry.
I could have stopped the pain you are going through right now but I hadnt.

My friend I hope you will stop shedding your precious tears because it's a pain not seeing you crying when I know you are

crying alone.

I am here waiting, whenever you need me, I will be here.

It's painful as I know I havent been through your pain,
It's painful when I know I couldnt physically understand how painful you are.

It's painful seeing you, being not like you.

My dear friend,
let God heal your wounds, you are holding on to your memories because you dont want to let go of it. It is hard to, you not letting go because admitt it, you love him.

Those memories were too short and sweet, and you would rather live in those memories than being in the present?

what could I possibly do, to share even just 1% of your pain?
What can I do to make you smile like an angel like you always do?

I dont want to be upset because I know you dont want to get people involved.
But allow me, my friend, because in this way I could feel I am connected to you.